This is a subject that has been on my heart for a while now, my friend told me that her Pastor preached this subject a few months back. It really made me think, because i know we can believe God for somethings, a house, a car, a job, but why is it, when there is something we really want, i mean a deep seeded desire, we flake out on God and don't think he will give it to us. i am speaking from what i am experiencing now. i see gods promises coming to pass in my life even somethings that were prophesied to me, i see it happening, so why is it that i have a lil doubt on the one thing? Is it becasue i am scared it will really happen and I don't know how i will handle it (with great love)? Well any way when my friend was telling me all this about the sermon, it just brought a lot of things to light, again i know God is blessing my ministry becasue i see it happening before my very eyes, but what about that mate i desire? He's working on that too, but because its not happening as fast and the way i think it should, i am a lil nervous, apprehensive, that He (God) won't come through for me, maybe because i messed up the first time around, maybe i still need to get over the hurt and pain of past rejections, maybe i need to love me more first, before He will completely let this man stay in my life for a lifetime. I didn't mean to go there, but since i did, i am learning to trust God more and more. i don't want to wander around the wilderness like the Isrealites did, after all the marvelous wonders God did in their presence, they still chose to murmur, to seek other gods, whats up with that? You let me see God split any sea, its a done dadda, lol. Ok, but someone tell me why, why can't we just trust God completely. God is so awesome, i am watching him work in my life and the lives of those around me, I really have no choice than to believe, I got too. The true believers please pray for me, God Bless you all
